oh my heart

where did she go?

this little baby of mine is gone.

and in her place is this big girl.

this girl who is unspeakably gorgeous.

who is picky and has her meghanisms that we have all come to know.

this one who random strangers ask to take pictures of.

this one who said strangers back away after getting a load of her less than agreeable personality.

this girl who i adore with all my being.

i ache when i'm not with her, like there is a piece of me missing.

this girl who will someday be this woman.

the time is going by so fast and i want to put on the brakes.

but every day that passes, she amazes me with something new.

she has taught me more about life in three years than i'd learned in the last twenty six years.

and she doesn't even know it.

i hope someday that she gets to experience this for herself.

and if she does, payback is coming. and i will smile and nod in understanding.

circle of life indeed.

my zen place

my happiest place on earth

smarty pants

we went to the bookstore last night.

to my knowledge, it's really the first time we've taken meghan just to go and look at books.

it's nice that she's old enough now to just enjoy the experience and not have to run in to get what we need and run out.

we didn't realize until we got in the car that it had been three hours and it was now almost 10pm.

such good parents we are...

but we got lost in books and what a place to find yourself.

sean and i take turns with her in the kids section while we browse at the grown up stuff for ourselves.

my find was a book called The Sneaky Chef - a cookbook about whole foods and how to hide them in your kid (and husband's) food. love it and can't wait to try the recipes.

i found myself studying the digital photography books, a book about Buddhism and of course, yoga books. there's a Yoga for Dummies book. um. ahem. i won't judge.

sean browsed the home improvement section and got a book about electric wiring. i'm scared. hold me. god help us all.

meghan browsed every book. every. book. i feel bad for the people who have to clean up the kids section.

she got a nice selection of easter book, barbie book (help me!), snow white, spongebob squarepants (my personal favorite) and some other stuff.

$60 and a sugar cookie later...it was 10pm.

i want to be lost in bookland every day.

and now, my little one feels the same way. i love our time together.

no easy feat

washing all three dogs is not easy.

yoda rubs his head in the dirt the second he's done.

daisy slowly inches away the whole time, so much that it isn't noticeable until she's gone. that, and she makes the funniest faces.

storm is...well. storm. enough said.

but seeing as how the white dogs were gray and storm was like a cloud of dirt when she shakes, it was time.

long overdue. i'm pretty sure there were curse words going through their little puppy minds.

of course, meghan has to supervise, particularly with yoda.

she's very protective of him. she stands there, the whole time. reassuring him that it will be okay. i just love the two of them together.

and then there's me, snapping pictures. getting in the way and not really helping.

but the end result is nice all around.

living here is chaotic in every sense. but i wouldn't change a thing.